From the beginning, I was raised in the church. As a child, I faced the weakness of this body that my soul was in. I found comfort in what I was being taught in children’s church and other youth activities. I learned who Jesus was..my Creator, my Redeemer, my Healer, my Sustainer, and my Savior for my sin debt. At the age of 9, I gave my life to the Lord and was baptized. I wanted to feel secure in knowing where I’d spend eternity if my life were to end and to have my own relationship with Christ.
Proverbs 22:6 “Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.”
Even when I was away from church, the desire to seek more of God remained in me. I know God has been working on my sanctification in many ways and opportunities. One example, a church student union at college allowed me to park my scooter in their building. After making friends there, I ended up in a bible study and back in His Word.
My life wasn’t a ‘total’ surrender to His will until the age of 30. I’m guilty of wanting what the world offered and ignoring the cost of it. God allowed me to have all that I wanted from the world…a marriage, a home, a career…but I failed to put Him first and above all things.. therefore I reaped the consequences. I’m thankful for that discipline.
Ephesians 2:1-3 "As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins,
My life was at a crossroad of choice.. will I hang on to my will or trust in His guiding? My world was stripped away and what I thought was my end..was actually my new beginning. I thank God for doing whatever it took..and yes it hurt a lot…to get my dependence centered on Him alone. I thank God that since age 9, I've never felt truly alone. I thank God that as much as I’ve failed Him and chosen the world, that He hasn’t given up on me and continues His good work in me. I thank God that I am forgiven because of His sacrifice. I thank God that I don’t fear death because of His resurrection and promises that He has prepared a place for me with Him. I thank God for His continuing grace and mercy that provides for my daily needs, my desires according to His will and for my eternal salvation.
Ephesians 2:8-10 "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—