Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Suffer and Go On

"Nothing to be gained by worrying between now and then. Andy yet still worried. I liked being a person. I wanted to keep at it. Worrying is yet another side effect of dying."(5.65) This shows that even tho Hazel is in pain and struggling, she would rather fight and live rather than give up and die.

        Today I picked up my long term disability form that was completed [again] by one of my doctors.  On the form it states, by both myself and the doctor, that I will never be able to return to work.  For those that don't know, I discontinued work in August 2001.  I may not work for a paycheck anymore but my 'suffering' doesn't exclude me from working for Christ anymore than a physically strong individual.
       'Two turtles were talking about God.  One said, 'Why doesn't God help the sick, needy and poor?  The other turtle said, 'I'm afraid He would ask me the same question.'
       Suffering is part of the body's deterioration but it is also a matter of perspective.  My loss of strength physically has been my source of leading me to spiritual gain.  I remind myself that all my struggles now are temporary and are meant to build my character closer to God's.
       Do you suffer and say 'it is well with my soul?'  Do you trust the path God has you on no matter what?  Is your life's circumstance your excuse to do less and less for the Kingdom?