Thursday, July 23, 2020

Qualified For, But Doing What's Right




To weary souls along life's road,
Help me, O Lord, to share their load;
To fallen souls enslaved in sin,
Help me, O Lord, their souls to win. —Jarvis



          One of the buzz phrases of our culture right now is 'entitled to'.  What is entitlement?  "The concept of something being owed to or deserved of by someone,"  What are we entitled to and what are our motives regarding that?  "Thomas Jefferson, who in 1776 wrote the first draft of the US Declaration of Independence, took it for granted that all of us possess certain God-given, “unalienable rights.” Yet, even in a democracy, there is fierce discussion about who is entitled to what rights.  Christians can look at rights from another perspective. Instead of being concerned about ourselves, we can think about what others need." [odb.org]  I don't want to get into a debate about what rights we have or do not have, but I want to share my thoughts, motives and entitlements that I did and did not use as an American disabled woman.
        As I begin my story, I will be using the word 'qualified for' instead of 'entitled to', because of the positive and negative connotations with each respectfully.
         When I was 12, I was correctly diagnosed at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN with the neuromuscular disease, CMT....Charcot-Marie-Tooth disease. "Charcot-Marie-Tooth (CMT) disease is the most commonly inherited neuropathy and affects 2.8 million people worldwide and 1 in 2500 in the United States.  The disease is named after the 3 physicians who first identified it in 1886, Jean-Martin Charcot and Pierre Marie in Paris, France, and Howard Henry Tooth in Cambridge, England. CMT disease is a motor-sensory neuropathy with multiple genotypes."   At the age of 18, I qualified automatically for SSI disability income, because neuromuscular diseases fall under the government guidelines as disabled without question.  That is because it is harder to find and get a job with my handicapped limitations, so its a small amount of money for necessities.  I also qualified for college assisted funding, along with my academic scholarship I earned and received.  My motives and intentions were never to live off of government assistance but to better myself with education and get a job.  When I got married, I lost my SSI income and that was totally acceptable because we never had a desire to live off the government in any way.  
           After college, I seeked a job like anyone else would.  I didn't look or ask for special favor or non-discriminatory benefits.  I applied and interviewed for jobs that were no way suitable for me, like a health inspector job in a 30 degree chicken factory, just for the interview experience.  When I did get my job, I started out as part-time and after 6 months went to full-time with benefits.  Many people don't get that you have to work your way up, not start at the top.
           When I moved back home at a few days from 30, I could certainly relate to Paul's feelings on his imprisonment, I called my new residence 'the dungeon'.  Philippians 1:12  "Now I want you to know, brothers and sisters, that what has happened to me has actually served to advance the gospel."   My college experience and job as a Lab Tech2, I believe were God given times for me.  I didn't change the world or move mountains, but God blessed me with a brain and enough ability to provide and contribute.  I also believe that God gifted me with a new talent to blog the past 11 years that has had more of an impact on other's lives, than my paid job ever did.  I get feedback from my readers occasionally that let's me know that they've benefited spiritually or in some other way and that makes my heart happy.
         Philippians 1:19-26  "Yes, and I will continue to rejoice,  for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death.  For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.  If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know!  I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far;  but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body.  Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith,  so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me."
           I write this blog to encourage people to focus on what God has given you to use in this world.  No one has all the pieces to play this game of life, but we are to make the most of our blessings and be purposeful and intentional with them.  It irks me to see people with so much strength and energy to be living like sloths, looking for a free ride and only thinking of themselves.  I don't want to point my finger but instead be an example of difference in the way I live and think.  " First Thessalonians 2:4 says, “Our purpose is to please God, not people. He alone examines the motives of our hearts”. God is interested in our motives even more than our actions."

Takeaways from what I've learned along the way:

1] You are enough and are purposefully blessed.

2] Don't let weaknesses rule or control your life.

3] Use what you qualify for to make you better for this world, others, and yourself.

4] Loss isn't without purpose in God's perspective and eventually in mine too.

5] Redirect yourself in a new way so that you can continue to be a blessing to others, when God changes your path.

6] Do not ever give up on yourself because God isn't finished using you in his plan.

7] Tomorrow is a new day with new mercies and another chance to bless someone, including yourself.

8] Isolation is the devil's playground, where he feeds your wrong thoughts.

9] The Bible is your best source of encouragement..read and meditate on it.


Sunday, July 12, 2020

Changes



Hebrews 13:8 
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Numbers 23:19
God is not human, that he should lie,
    not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
    Does he promise and not fulfill?

Psalm 91:5-6
You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, Nor of the arrow that flies by day, Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

Matthew 18:3
And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

1 Corinthians 15:51-52
Listen, I tell you a mystery: We will not all sleep, but we will all be changedin a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. 



      Life is a series of changes. Some are inevitable and some are man-made, but all are under the control of God's will and hands.  He may not be pleased with or condone the change, but as Romans 8:28 tells believers "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
     "The rapid changes in our world can give us a sense of unease and uncertainty. We can be thrown off balance by the suffering we see around us, the evolving technology that outpaces our ability to absorb it, and the daily rise and fall of the financial markets. Sometimes what seems worthwhile to us today has less value tomorrow." [odb.org]
      We never know what lies ahead and I am grateful for that fact! I have wasted and do waste enough time and energy when I worry about the future. If I knew ahead of time what was going to happen to me, I would not be emotionally or in any other way prepared for what lies ahead. The thing is, God gives us strength for that moment and not for the moments in our future. He will give us fearless faith at the exact time we need it and not a second earlier!
      As for myself, I typically fight change with all my might.  I realize though, that not all change is bad.  Here are some of my thoughts on change:

1]  CHANGE CAN BE A BLESSING.
"If nothing ever changed, there would be no butterflies".  I put up with an inadequate caregiver for way too long because of fear that I would get someone worse, but instead I was blessed with one of the best caregivers ever, Karla.

2] NOT ALL ACCEPT CHANGE WITH GRACE.
There are family and friends who were in my life and who knew me in my stronger days, that now have passed or visited my residence without any acknowledgement that I am here.  I feel they were more interested in what I can do, than who I am as a person. "People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."

3] CHANGE HURTS AND HEALS.
As much as my physical strength weakens daily, it does hurt on all levels: mentally, emotionally, relationally, and physically.  But, it has turned me toward God more than anything for strength, peace, hope, patience and endurance.

4] CHANGE TAKES COURAGE
No matter how much life changes, we can have hope, for we are anchored to a firm foundation that will never be shaken.  Isaiah 28:16 "Therefore thus says the Lord GOD, Behold, I am laying in Zion a stone, a tested stone, A costly cornerstone for the foundation, firmly placed. He who believes in it will not be disturbed." [intouch.org]

5] CHANGE IS EXPECTED FOR BELIEVERS
When a person is born-again by accepting Jesus as their Lord and Savior, their lives go through a process of sanctification--making them more like God.  As a Christian, we are forever changed into a new creature and thus should behave, act, speak and respond to this world differently than those who remain unchanged by the Holy Spirit.