Well the other night, 5am, I woke up from a dream to find myself with unexplainable chest pain. It felt like 20pounds of squeezing pressure all the way into my throat. It was a short-lived but scary feeling. It made me think of people who supposedly have died in their sleep but maybe they didn't and woke up like this before the end.
It also makes me think of Don Moen's song, 'When It's All Been Said and Done.' There are a couple of key lyrics. 'Did I do my best to live for truth, did I live my life for You?' None of us are good or perfect but we can live a life of purpose with good news on our hearts and lips. 'Only what I've done for love's reward, will stand the test of time.' God is interested in your heart, not your 401K portfolio. These are the questions that really matter in the end and can give you peace to go on without fear.
I think moments like these where you question if this is your time to go is a good pause time of reflection. Being calm in anxious moments can do more for you than most anything. Your mind can easily turn worldly but keep your soul eternally driven. Each of our days is fleeting by so make them count as you run your race of time.
I'm glad you got calmed down and it was not your time to go. Love, Mom
ReplyDeleteScary! But what a blessing to know that if it had been your time, you have no questions about the future. I just pray that the Lord will let us keep you a good while longer.
ReplyDeleteDitto, Bobbie and Charity! I have several friends right now who are battling possible terminal illnesses (depending on God's will, of course). They are facing their mortality more seriously than others, I am sure. However, I remind myself daily that tomorrow is not certain for any of us. As my dad said in his final days, "Baby, there are no guarantees in this old world...only eternity is certain." We all need to live our lives as if today was our last day on this earth, giving God the glory and being ready to meet Him at any moment. May my days count for Him...all of us begin to die the moment we are born. Love you, sweet friend....and let's keep on breathing til He determines our last breath! T.
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